In fact today morning when I got up, I still had yesterday's mood lingering around. So was still in bed even after past 8 am. I was suppose to attend a satsang at my friends place but I was not ready hence dropped it. I had a strong urge to go to the beach but could not go because of the sun. The mind was not still. It lacked the calmness. So i thought of posting a blog. As I was scanning the room my eyes stopped at the below painting. My memory immediately took a U turn and returned to the past which inspired me to create that painting. This was a photograph of a tehelka reporter. At that time Tehelka was always in the news for their investigative journalism. So was it the tehelka or was the photograph itself which attracted me, I really do not know.
Once again, i had moved on before I completed it. So this also remained incomplete.
I always feel I leave everything I start incomplete. If you ask me whether its good, my answer would be fully a confused one. Definitely it is not an encouraging habit. But I think this nature of mine makes me very fluid, and helps me to spring back into action after any set back.
I have the nature of a vagabond. Are these characteristics of mine due to lack of commitment, or is it lack of passion to be perfect? Is this making my life interesting or is it sabotaging my growth? I leave it until I find someone who can answer these.
Meanwhile, i am sharing a few lines I had penned yesterday.
The Vagabond
I want to break away, away from all attachments,
attachments that pull me down, down to the lanes totally unknown,
Unknown terrain that is full of darkness, darkness which made me fall.
Fall not once but many times, time and again I try to get up and walk
walk and try to move ahead, move ahead being more aware of the mistakes i make
Making my way through, through the twists and turns.
A turn that finally lead me to light, light even though fairly dim,
dim due to the grime of the past, which was not so pleasant,
pleasant was the word I was seeking , seeking through the days of my life.
Life has been a lot kind to be of-late, of-late I could let myself a bit free
fee from all entangles of my life, life which I want to create to cherish
cherish the newly fond memories, memories which i want to create
Create with lot of love and being aware, aware of being myself and being alone
alone get lost in the beauty of nature, nature in which i move like a vagabond
A vagabond who takes each day as it comes, since each day brings a new experience.
